"Can I Be the One For You?" by Eric D

Dear Journal,
Well damn, my first day of High School was something. I was watching the whole series
of Honeywork’s High School Love Committee in one sitting and I made it to school late! I can’t believe it! What an embarrassment! I’m so damn pathetic. But something... strange happened. While my annoying friends were teasing me, I caught sight of a girl and then I felt like my heart pounding quickly, and my face burning with heat. I can’t be... falling in love with her...? 

Dear Journal,
It’s been two whole years since I fell in love with Hikari. Oh yeah, her name is Hikari.
She’s the girl I fell in love with since freshman year. I haven’t even talk to her yet. Can’t you believe it?! I’m so pathetic! I don’t have the courage to talk to her. Anyways, her friends asked her if she ever liked someone. I felt really upset about that. I hope that if she does, whoever she likes rejects her. Wait, what am I talking about? Am I getting jealous? I’m not even dating her and I feel that way? How pathetic am I! 

Dear Journal,
I MADE A TOTAL EMBARRASSMENT OF MYSELF! Let me tell you : It was during
P.E. The girls played tennis while the guys played soccer. Luckily, I was at the scoreboard. I’m not really an athletic kid. What caught my sight was her.. Hikari. Did I tell you that she was terrible at sports? But she always shrugs it off and smiles like nothing happens. Her smile is that of an angel. She’s so cute! I heard her and her friend talking about what type of guy she likes and she said : “ Someone who I like is my type”. WHAT?! So you’re telling me the person she likes is her type? I hope she doesn’t like someone right now... . While I was talking to myself, a ball flew towards me and hit me across the face. I had to go to the infirmary because of it. I still remember crying, not because of the pain, but because if someone she likes loves her, I won’t be able to be confess to her. Haha! Not like I’m going to ever confess to her. 

Dear Journal,
I almost made to school late ... again! Last night, I was thinking about her and I just
couldn’t sleep. Right when I was going through the classroom door, out of all people, SHE had to be standing on the other side! I found it cute that she had a little bed head. Probably because she forgot to do her hair. I said “ Good morning! You have a little bed head”. Are you kidding me?! Was that really the first thing I say to her? Wait... First. Thing. I. Say. To. Her... Today was the very first time I talked to her... To Hikari. 

Dear Journal,
Ren wanted to talk to me about something. If you don’t know who Ren is, he’s one of
my classmates. He changed a lot since the last time I saw him. In Junior High, he had long white hair, below average build and nerdy looking glasses. He was extremely shy and was always an

awkward kid. This year, he changed for some reason. He cut his hair, looked more bulky and his personality changed a lot. He’s a lot more confident and courageous. I wonder why. Why did he changed himself? In all honesty, I wish I can change myself like that too. I want to be confident. I want to be courageous. I don’t want my jealousy getting the best of me. I went with him and we sat at a bench. He immediately asked me if I liked Hikari. I said ‘yeah’ and I was wondering why he was asking me about Hikari. He then told me something that I don’t think I’ll ever forget : “ I changed myself because I wanted to impress my crush. Even when I did that, she still consider me as a good friend because she already has someone she likes . In all honesty, I didn’t care. I know I had a 0% chance but I did it anyways because of her. She’s the one that gave me courage. You don’t have a 0% chance. You still have a chance. Confess to her now before it's too late. You still have time to change yourself.”. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I closed my journal. Today’s the day. Today’s the day that I confess to Hikari. What Ren told me yesterday gave me hope. If he can change himself, then I can too. I walk around, looking for her. My mind continuing to say “ You’re not at 0%, you can do this !“ . I find her standing next to her locker. I immediately call her. She turns, looking confused. “Blake? Is something wrong?”, she said. I took a deep breath and said , “ I have something to tell you later, so can you please meet me in the art room at 4:10?”. She looks at me with confusion and immediately blushes. She slowly nods. “Well uh.. I’ll see you later then”, I said, walking away. I can feel my face heating up. I finally did it. Now we wait. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 4:05
H-104, the Art Room.
I stare, looking at it. I grasp my heart, hearing it thump loudly and rapidly. It’s as if my heart’s about to explode. Hikari is definitely inside right now. She’s always the type to arrive early. I close my eyes. You’re not at 0%. You’re not at 0% . I open my eyes. It’s 4:10 . It’s time. Let’s go. I open the door and walk into the classroom. I see her standing at the corner, still looking confused. I walk up to her, feeling my face heat up. Next thing I know, I’m standing right in front of her. It’s now or never . I took a deep breath and said, “Can I be The One for You?”.
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