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White noise. A hum. Mmm mm mm. A continuous melody humming
in the listener's ear in bliss. That’s the first thing Elora’s senses make out.
The only movement being her own two feet pattering on the solid ground. When it
hits her… an overwhelming sense of fatigue. Elora’s own breath goes quiet, only
a voice in her head screaming. All around her the black fog seems to suffocate
her. Before long she was falling down an endless pit, swallowing her up into
its nothingness. Then a voice speaks as if covered by a cloth.
A deep voice
vibrates, “Welcome, we’ve been expecting you,” Elora swallows her throat dry as
she moves her lips to speak, her voice gone. Realizing this she panics, heart
thumping to an indistinguishable sound. A warning. The voice speaks up again,
“You may be wondering where it is you are at. And that answer will come soon.
Only when you are ready will your mind be open to what it is we must reveal to
you. Till then all there is to do is wait.” Wait, she does. It feels as if
several minutes have passed before a light blinks awake and reveals a floating
wisp of fog that slowly starts to expand towards Elora and her surroundings.
Before Elora knows it, she is transported to an empty coffee shop. The cafe
being unrecognizable to her she begins to panic; a suffocation of all the overwhelming
guilt she feels with no understanding of where this deep emotion was coming
from.
Then the voice
echoes, “Does any of this seem familiar to you? Ah, yes almost forgot.”
A deep rumbling laugh is all that is heard
before she is able to speak what has been bouncing around in her mind and
trying to form through her lips.
“What is this?” Elora yells.
“Now then, there is
no reason for this unnecessary noise. If you have a question, speak it
uprightly.”
“ What. Am. I. Doing.
Here?” She speaks with an edge.
“Hmm, never quite
lose the fight in you, do you? That was always something we have admired about
you from the beginning.”
“Who’s this ‘we’?
“Well, that’s just
something you need to figure out on your own, isn’t it?” Elora sneered at that
with a spark of fight lighting up in her eyes. “Now then no more worrying your
pretty little head. We have this all under control.” the voice said over
Elora’s huff as if about to retort.
A familiar feeling of
having once been treated like glass by...by her family? Yes…she had a family!
She knew how to handle herself only years of self doubt having hindered that
confidence. Doubt resulting from her time growing up with her parents and older
brother, who, more than anyone treated her as if she was a frail little bird he
decided to care for after their parents died. Don’t get her wrong she’s beyond
grateful and loves him dearly; he’s the only family who cares to sacrifice his
life. But, the only way to drown out her frustrations about living in the
shadow’s of her brother’s protectiveness relied heavily on her training. Elora
knew as soon as she picked up her outworn dancing shoes and glided across the
stage this is what she wants to be doing for the rest of her life.
So why then does she
now doubt herself on this? The one thing she knew she could do. A reason
lingered in her head. One Elora tried so hard to hide in order to keep doing
what she knew she could. So why was she here when she should be heading back to
the academy? ‘This isn’t real’ echoed in her head. Was something… or someone
keeping her from that?
“ You’ve figured it
out. You are right, this isn’t the reality you know. This is a space manifested
by your conscience and our collective. You have been brought here because your
mind can’t grasp whatever is ailing you and has brought you here to resolve it.
The question you should be asking yourself now is the million dollar question.
What will you do when you get out? If you are here that must mean a conflict is
tethering you.”
“A conflict?”
“ Yes, we can only be
accessed when the body cannot support the mind or better yet emotions on its
own. It just so happens you are in that predicament as we speak. So it seems
you have a reason for being here, something that is troubling you so much that
you have been directed to us.”
“What do you mean?”
Elora said, looking perplexed.
“You are neither here
nor there,” the voice spoke as fog surrounded the empty coffee shop and when it
receded revealed a hospital room with a body on the bed that resembled Elora’s
own. On a chair sat her brother, Theo, who was anxiously staring at her silent,
unmoving body as if he could persuade it to move with sheer intensity.
“Why are you showing
me this?”
“This is what it
comes down to. A choice, to completely abandon your last tie to your family or
to allow yourself a chance at rekindling what you’ve lost. An opportunity so
few come across is approaching you now. No further can we guide you, the choice
must be up to you, however, if you decide to make amends these new revelations
will all be remembered as hallucinations. We see that he cares for you,” the
voice says with a soft tone. “ But the choice is yours. You decide your
course.”
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It hurt him to see
her motionless form. He could just stare at her for ages with only his eyes and
agitation to compel some sort of response from the immobile body. So small and
frail hooked up to the only things keeping her alive. Is she dreaming right
now? The loud beeps similar to a hum echo in the small room. White noise he
hears as he sleeps restlessly on the couch next to the bed that holds up his
sister. It haunted him every time he closed his eyes the youthful face of his
little sister, a title she despised and felt she outgrew, in distress as the
car flipped. When he woke up after the accident, he wasn’t spared the
horrifying image of his sister lying next to him. Arm stretched out in her last
moments awake, reaching for him tears falling from her eyes and falling down.
Those same eyes closed as if asleep, only the small motion of her chest slowly
rising up and down indicating she was alive. He knew Elora was the only tie to
his family he had now and knew that the last minutes he had with her were words
of hurt spewing from his mouth. He shivered as the realization dawned on him
that if his little sister didn’t pull through he’d be on his own. He wouldn’t
get to see her in a cap and gown as she walked to the center and grabbed the
art degree Elora had worked so hard to earn. A dance academy Elora was willing
to sacrifice anything to go to even her last connection to her family, her
brother. Seeing her so willing, so prepared to move away from him was a stab to
his heart. He knew she was only pursuing what she loved and he could smile
knowing she was doing just that. That’s why on her last week of finals he was
so enthusiastic to accept her offer for coffee, despite the long flight he
would have to endure. It all seemed worth it though, to see her smile and eyes
twinkle as she raved about the ever nearing graduation and the question that
loomed over them both. What would she do after? Return home with her brother…
or continue the next steps of her career. It was never his choice to make, so
he had decided he would support her in any way he could even if that meant
letting her stay for her dreams. He only hoped Elora would know that.
“Little sister,
whatever you choose to do with your life, with or without me, I will be someone
you can depend on without a doubt. When you do wake up Elora, know your big
brother loves you no matter what you choose.”
As he clasped her
small hand he laid his head on his forearms. Closing his eyes he saw images of
a woman dancing gracefully along the stage. Poised and elegant with a smile
upon her face and a twinkle in her eyes. A small hum that moved her dance along
slowly turned to one of an urgent symphony of beeps. Head shooting up he felt a
twitch on his clasped hands that were joined together with Elora’s and then
another. With no time to spare he called for the doctors, tears pooling at his
eyes as his sister’s body responded miraculously for the first time.