"Untitled, 2019 " by Angelina L

Everyone changes, it’s only natural for this to occur. From the growth of maturity to just liking something different we have seen it all. The experiences we have dealing with change can be frightening but can also lead us to a new chapter in our lives. In the span of four short high school years, each year being different, I have evolved into a newer version of myself. But I can’t say that each version is good.
The start of high school, freshman year proved to be the year that I had a bubbly personality and was also naive and lazy. Not the best version of myself I’d say. Coming out of middle school with straight A’s left me a bit arrogant. With the idea that I was “too good” for prep classes I took on the challenge of all honors classes. This is where the naivete kicks in. I thought that I could get by just paying attention in class and not practicing and doing the homework, gosh I was wrong. My laziness crept in like a ghost when it came to academics. During this time I had no care in the world.
Sophomore year was not much a change from the previous year except that I now knew that school was a priority. One year older and one year wiser this is where fifteen-year-old Angelina became a more diligent worker. Compared to the previous year it was an obvious change in work ethic and determination that led me to earn a 4.0 GPA at the end of the second semester of sophomore year.
Junior year was the year of change. I became a realist and a hypocrite. I became a hypocrite by starting to play the game called League of Legends, which I used to call “League of Losers.” Not my finest moment in life but hey it’s actually a fun game. The past two years I felt like I was still a kid but the realization of college coming soon hit me like a wrecking ball. As opposed to the earlier years, my overall outlooks on life changed drastically. Here I acted like an adult, thinking “What would mom and dad do?” instead of jumping the gun which I normally would have done. Maturity sprouted from this year. 2018 was the start of a year that left an emotional mark on my heart. February two of my closest friends were hit by a car and in June my great grandfather passed away. This caused me to close myself off from the world. I was not as opened as I used to be and I kept to myself most of the time. Faking a smile became easier and lying was just another pastime.
Oh, senior year... This I’d say has been quite an experience so far. For starters, I never in a million years would have thought that I would get into KPOP but the world has a way of surprising you. Once more I am a hypocrite because I made fun of it only a few months ago. My obsession with KPOP got to the point where I learned how to read the language... And again not my finest moment but what can you do. I still have the maturity I developed junior year and I also still keep to myself. Despite being around many friends I still don’t have the ability to talk about how I’m feeling. At this point, it’s easier to keep quiet and listen as opposed to expressing how I feel. What new changes that aren’t so new that I have developed is senioritis, which is basically my laziness coming back to bite me. I find it hard to pay attention in class these days and give up when something is at the level of “good enough.”
One thing that still hasn’t changed from freshman year is my bubbly personality. I’m pretty sure this will stick with me for the rest of my life knowing that I’m a person who enjoys being happy and making others happy. I want to say that for the most part, I think I’ve developed into a mesh of both good and bad traits. I guess this just leaves room for more growth.