January 28, 2017
2:30 p.m.
Looking through
snapchats in an effort to procrastinate from doing my homework.“Buzz Buzz” I
open the text message, anticipating a funny meme or joke, but instead I’m
greeted by a news image of a missing person report. An all too familiar face is
on the cover of the report, and it hits me that my friend and coworker has been
missing since Friday night. I quickly go on to twitter, attempting to get all
of the information and answer all the questions that are racing through my
mind.
2:45 p.m.
I find a news article:
“Lake Arrowhead”, “no phone”, “never came back”, “missing”. All the words
appear on the screen and I can’t believe it; I start to panic, I contact my
friend telling them what happened as fear begins to set into my mind. I start
to tell myself that it’s all going to be okay, that people who go missing are
always found alive, that it’s all just an accident, that everything is going to
work out and nothing is really wrong.
5:00 p.m.
I try to
distract myself and reassure myself that it will all work out, that nothing is
wrong. At this point I’ve convinced myself that he’s okay and that they will
find him within the next couple hours; I go about my daily routine and distract
myself from it all.
January 29, 2017
3:47 a.m.
I’m asleep, but
at this time they found him in Lake Arrowhead and a news report comes out that
he has been found.
8:05 a.m.
I’m getting
ready to go to the pool for a Lifeguard interview until “Buzz Buzz”, I just got
a text. I see the preview for the text and it says that “they found him.” I
look at it and feel relieved, thinking that everything is okay because they
found him….until I opened the rest of the text. “Victim found in 30 feet of
water” One, two, three, I hold my breath in hopes that it’s not true.
8:15 a.m.
I arrive to
work, slowly walking through the parking lot with my head hung low, the sun is
out but a gush of wind sends chills through my body. I approach the sliding
doors, carefully deciding where to place my feet as I walk through the doorway.
In the lobby, nothing but the sounds of breathing and sniffles from everyone
staring at their feet while sitting on the cold leather chairs.
8:45 a.m.
We’re all
called into the classroom, and in unison everyone raises from their chairs
drags their feet across the floor. We all file into the room and slouch into
the black rolling chairs, elbows on the table, hand in heads, staring at our
feet. The lady at the front starts to talk to us, but I feel like I’m
underwater listening to the muffled words of the people above. We are all told that
the interviews are canceled due to unforeseen circumstances… but we all know
the real reason why-our friend is dead.
This story is about one of my
friends and co-workers who met an unfortunate and tragic death at a young age.
His death was one that shocked all of us, and left many, including myself,
heartbroken and in tears. We were all confused at the sudden news of his death,
wondering how it all even happened, but more so we continued to ask ourselves
“Why him? Why now? How? Who? How could this have happened?” As the story of his
death began to unfold, more confusion was the only thing present, no closure,
no answers, no reason. But soon I began to see just how big of an impact this
person had on the world and people around him, as posters began to pop up
around the city about this person and the message others were sending out to
the community. I realized that his death did have some positives come out of
it, that his physical absence didn’t mean the ending of his existence in the
world. If anything his death brought many people together and encouraged others
to live a life full of kindness, compassion, and love; although death is never
an event anyone wants to occur, something beautiful can result as others learn
about the life of the deceased individual and all of the people they touched in
the world. The death of Dawson will never be something easy to understand and
he will forever be missed by all, but his compassion has set an example for
others to live a life full of love.