According to the old saying "patience is a virtue",
patience is something that people should strive for. But why would anyone say
that? I just don’t understand. Apparently we should wait, sit tight and allow things
to come to us instead of going out of our way to go get what we want. That's
what I would do; I’d be out there trying to do something. I'm not impatient, I just
don't see the point in waiting for something to come to me when I have the
opportunity to go and get it done myself in an efficient and convenient manner.
One of the worst feelings in
the world, is waiting for news, any kind of update be it good or bad. Waiting stresses
me out. It makes me cringe. I become anxious and irritable. I don’t think that
I’m incredibly impatient, or at least I hope. It’s just that the waiting game
prolongs whatever is coming, and that’s never a good thing. I want things done
promptly. I’d rather hear back
immediately, deal with the decision, and move on to the next step. I’m not so
much in a hurry, but I’d like things to flow smoothly. Being held up by a
simple decision impedes this and just causes problems for me
Currently, I am waiting to
hear back from UCI; University of California Irvine. I applied in November to
the nursing program and I haven’t heard one thing back from the school. I’ve
sent in all of my papers, the various files and scores as requested, but I have
yet to get the one thing I truly desire: A decision on my admission, a response,
a simple response. According to some of my friends, the super smart geniuses
that have so graciously graced me with their input, and according to my Mom,
Dad, Tías, Tíos (Aunts and Uncles) and grandparents, I have a pretty good
chance. My scores were in the median and my GPA matched up with the median for
the school. I’m right in the middle. So in theory and just in theory since nothing
has happened yet, I should get in. However knowing my luck, and knowing my ever
burning hate for anticipating news, I’m telling myself I won’t get in. Shutting
myself down like that could probably be classified as a coping mechanism for
stress. I mean if I prepare for the worse that can happen, the overwhelming
feeling of shame that comes with a college rejection letter, the laughs, the
harsh disappointed glances, and the knowledge that I just wasn’t good enough or
that I should have prepared more, how much can it bother me? Either way I’m
preparing for a rejection letter because I’d rather have a backup plan. Doing
something feels way better than waiting around for nothing to happen.
Waiting for news like I've said before just isn't worth it to me; my time
could be better spent doing something else. It causes anxiety for me, if UCI
would just hurry up and email me an admission's response I would know or have a
better idea of where I am going to college. And that knowledge would set any
high-schoolers mind to ease. But I suppose, there is a tiny up side to having
to wait so long, and to continue to have to wait so long for a simple reply.
All of this waiting has allowed me to make a more informed decision on what
school I decide to attend. All of this extra time has allowed me to double
check the nursing programs at the Cal states I applied to and it has also
allowed me to check out the housing situations and the different minors and clubs
they have on each campus.
However there is a downside to this upside, after all what goes up , must
come down. Because of all this extra time spent looking at the fine details of
each school, I've come to the conclusion that UCI has everything that I want in
a school; it has my major (which I probably won’t be admitted to) it has the
minor I want, it has the clubs that I’m interested in joining like a TENNIS
CLUB, A TENNIS CLUB THAT IS ACTIVE, which if you couldn't tell by the caps lock
makes me very happy. There are just so many benefits for me. Basically the
admission decision, when I get it, will kill me either in a good way or in the
complete opposite.
Despite my utter loathing for waiting for anything that should be
expedited A.S.A.P. (my admission decision), I think I finally understand why
people say patience is a virtue. It's because you have to wait either way you
look at it. It is completely unavoidable and there is no use getting all worked
up over something you have no control over. If only this epiphany had come four
months ago.
I only have to continue waiting
until the 31st of this month, since that's their deadline. They'd
better abide by it or they'll be bombarded by complaints and phone calls and
the occasional death threat (not that ALL three will be coming from me, I might
just skip the phone calls and the complaints). Despite the epiphany that so
conveniently came near the end of this personal reflection, until the 31st I
will continue to furiously refresh my email until I get a notification from
UCI.
P.S. on 3/14 @5:00pm Mathew Ryan
Trevino received admission to UCI’s Nursing Major, No death threats were sent
and he only refreshed his email once. Maybe Patience is a virtue!
**death
threats were used for comedic effect.